Two months later, and Alissa and Dale were still in Barnacle Bay. Alex and Dale’s parents had returned to Riverview as soon as Alex was well enough to make the trip. There was around the clock security protecting Alissa. The FBI was now officially investigating the case.
Dale wished that he had not agreed to her sleeping with Alex. How could he have agreed to such a thing! He knew she hadn’t done it yet because neither she nor Alex had been well enough. Now they had both been fully released by their doctors.
“Alissa, do you still feel the same way?” He asked her.
Alissa felt momentary panic. Then she answered. “Yes, I do.”
“I’m flying out there tonight.” He told her. “When would you like to get together?”
Dale wasn’t working although he did volunteer at the hospital. He was attending a seminar the next day. She thought it would be easier for him if he didn’t know when she was with Alex. The sooner she got it over with the better it would be for them both.
“Tomorrow Dale will be at a seminar at the hospital. Alex please promise me that you won’t discuss our time together with him. It’s hard enough for him as it is.” Alissa said.
“There is one more problem. I have two bodyguards.” She told him.
“I’ll come and pick you up. I’ll show them my credentials and they will let you leave with me!” Alex said. “Is 9:00 alright?”
“Yes. That’s fine.” Alissa answered.
“I love you. Goodnight, Alissa.” Alex told her.
“Goodnight, Alex.” Alissa replied. She couldn’t believe that she was actually going to do this.
“I’m leaving, now!” Dale told Alissa as he left the house the next morning. He didn’t hug or kiss her goodbye. He seldom looked at her anymore. The reason was because he couldn’t bear to look in her eyes. He was afraid that the special look she had always had just for him would be gone.
Alissa knew that it was because of her relationship with Alex. However, she felt like this was something that she had to do. If not for Alex, she believed that both she and their beautiful babies Shawn and Cara would be dead.
The fact that she cared for Alex just made it easier for her to do. She knew that Dale could not understand. If their positions were reversed, she would feel the same as Dale. She truly hoped that Dale and she would be able to work through it after everything was over.
The babysitter arrived, and then Alex came to pick her up. Alex had rented a small home. “I thought that you would feel more comfortable if we had more privacy than we would at a hotel.” He told her.
He studied her face for a few moments. “You look wonderful, Alissa.” He told her quietly.
He pressed his lips against hers hungrily, and she responded with the same passion. This was something that they had both wanted for a long time. As they made their way to the bedroom, they shed their clothing.
He put his shirt and underwear back on and sat on the bed waiting for Alissa to come out. She finally came out wrapped in just a towel. Her clothing was scattered throughout the house. She started gathering it to redress. Alex stopped her.
“I suddenly realized that I could not do it, Alex. I made a vow to Dale when I married him that I would be faithful to him. That means not just my heart, but my body too! I have already betrayed him by having feelings for you. I can’t make it worse by sleeping with you as well. I belong to Dale. No matter how much I owe you, I can’t repay you with something that I have no right to give!” She explained.
“Dale agreed to this Alissa.” He reminded her.
He removed the towel that she had put on and removed his clothing again as well. Alissa moaned in pleasure as he kissed her chest.
“No, Alex.” Alissa suddenly said with her last efforts at self control. She pushed him off of her again and jumped off the bed.
“Alex, you told me once that you couldn’t bear it if I ever hated you. I could never hate you, Alex, but I would hate myself. We both know that if we go all the way, once won’t be enough. The attraction between us is too strong. It’s even stronger now than it used to be. We would end up having an affair. I would feel dirty. We can never spend time alone again. If Dale ever found out, which he would, he would leave me! I couldn’t bear not having him in my life. I couldn’t bear hurting him more than I have already. I just hope that with the way I have messed things up, it is not too late for he and I to repair our relationship. If you really love me, please leave me alone! Please let me be happy with my husband and children!” She begged.
Alex knew that if he kissed her again, she would be his. If he reminded her of all that he had done for her again, she would willingly return to the bed. Desire for him still burned in her eyes and body despite her tears and her words.
All of her defenses were gone. She had given this one last effort to prevent it going any further between them. The problem was that he truly loved her. He couldn’t do this to her.
“Go home, Alissa. I am going back to Riverview. Please remember that I love you, Alissa. If you ever need me for anything, I will always be there for you. If things don’t work out between you and Dale, you can always come to me.” He told her.
Her eyes softened. “Alex. Don’t wait for me! You deserve someone who loves you as much as you love them. I am not that person. Live your own life! I appreciate everything that you have done for me, but it is time for you to let me go!” She gathered up her things and returned home.
SPECIAL THANKS TO JAZEN FOR HER IDEAS AND HELP WITH THIS CHAPTER!
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